This week I’ve been wearing Korina.
For those of you who don’t know, Korina is my silky, straight, almost shoulder-length wig. I was sick with some cold/flu/exhaustion bug (I slept 12 hours – I haven’t done that since I was an infant) and on Sunday afternoon, I decided that this was going to be a no muss, no fuss week. So, after I washed it and went through the motions, I did a couple of flat twists, slapped on the wig cap and the wig, threw up the deuces and called it a day.
Now wearing this wig, I’ve noticed a couple of things:
- Why does it feel so messy on my head? Strands are all over the place and the hair itself isn’t staying put – the hair isn’t doing what I want it to do. Granted, it is a wig, but did my relaxed hair behave like this? I think it did – at least right after a relaxer. I’ve grown used to my twists staying in place. Yes, sometimes they do what they want (I need them to curl left and they decide to curl right… or not curl at all), but for the most part, I go with the flow and so does my hair.
- My colleagues like straight hair. Now, I don’t know if this is because most times there is something kinky happening on top of my head and they just aren’t used to the straight hair any more. It doesn’t really bother me one way or the other because someone liking or disliking my hair isn’t my problem – I choose to wear my hair how I like my hair. This week, I like straight and silky, but be sure that next week my kinks and curls will be back.
- I don’t feel as confident. Maybe it’s because I’m wearing a wig that I feel somewhat false. The wig serves its purpose: I don’t have to manipulate my own hair for a week or two, but I just don’t feel quite like me. It is amazing how hair/how you look affects how you feel. I still feel OK, but I don’t have the same kind of oomph in my step that I had last week.
This is a love/hate relationship with wigs and weaves. I can do braids or twists without a problem – maybe because the assumption is that it is not my hair. With a wig or weave, although I’m not pretending that the hair is mine, I’m not shouting to the rooftops that I’m wearing a Yaki blend. I love the fact that I can protect my hair and change up my style, but I hate the fact that I don’t feel like me. I feel like an impostor of sorts – and I’ve felt like that from the first day I wore it. I think I look cute and not too wiggish, but I just don’t feel right.
Whatever. I will be wearing Korina until the end of the week, then I’m busting out a flat twist out. For real!
So readers, when you’re wearing protective styles like a wigs, weaves or braids, do you feel out of sorts or do you feel like yourself?